I was just too busy this year trying to hold it together, both emotionally and on the DIY front. I'm finally finished with most of the major DIY stuff so now I can concentrate on the fun stuff. Don't wait for me to post "previews" of stuff I'm working on though. If it shows up here, it shows up here. I'll start with the list above and work through the more fun stuff. I'm so over doing the "not fun" stuff!
Emotionally, I got through my "year of firsts". It was hard but I did it. I mean, what else could I do? On many occasions I would have preferred to just drive over a cliff rather than get through the firsts but I held on. What is a "year of firsts" you ask? Well, my first birthday without her. My first spring garden without her, my first Easter without her, HER first birthday without her. The list goes on - you get the picture. My best friend told me that it wouldn't necessarily get easier but it wouldn't be quite as "raw" and she was right. There are still times, however where I feel like I just poured salt into an open wound. Just not as often.
On another level there were times where I honestly felt "censored" by what I was allowed to do and say on my own blog. I won't get into the details but suffice it to say - it definitely took the wind out of my sails to the point that I just didn't even want to say anything. And once that happened, it all just felt so narcissistic to me - "hey everybody - look at ME!" And that was NOT the reason I started blogging! It was started so that I could connect with Nancy Jo somehow.
Now on to 2013!!! I can admit that I am really excited about 2013! I haven't felt that way in YEARS! And here is why. No more will I lament on another New Year's Eve about how shitty the past year was and hope that the next year will be better. I will make a conscientious effort this year to make it better - not just hope it'll be better. To do that I have decided that from now on I will practice and have "grateful intentions". Rather than whine about my fat ass, I'll be grateful that I'm relatively healthy and then do something about said fat ass. That's just one example. Believe me, there are many others. I've already noticed that being grateful is much better than whining. So that being said, here are a few of the things I'm grateful for:
1. my creativity and willingness to jump in with both feet. Hesitation be damned!
2. my kitties. They love me without expecting anything in return. Well except for nightly treats and a clean litter box.
3. the fact that I live in Denver. Is there any better weather ANYWHERE else??? Hell, no! And of course, there are those Broncos.
4. the ability to be able to buy good wine. 'Nuff said.
5. and last but not least, my new hearing aids!! My world is no longer a silent one.
I'm limiting this list to five because let's be real - there is no way I can list every single thing that I am grateful for. Suffice it to say that my Maker knows I'm grateful for each and every one of them. And to anyone out there who's feels slighted by not being included or mentioned, know that it was not my intention to hurt your feelings.
So there it is....no big preview about what I'm posting about in the coming year. No pictures to post or any before or afters just yet. For now, my plan is to just keep on doing the things I love doing with the people and things I love the most.
Okay, just one picture.....
HOW CUTE IS SHE?????????
Happy New Year! Hope to see more of you in 2013. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Lynda! Happy and safe New Year to you as well. You will definitely be seeing more of me!
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